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[February 20th, 2007 @ 3:05am ] |
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i have lately been finding myself thinking the thought, "I just want to go home." when something doesn't go my way.. or when i am sad, but what does that really mean? I am home.. right here where I have always been. Maybe it is just that I am getting scared.. scared of all the change that is coming. Maybe 'home' is being a kid again. idk.. but i really wish I had some clue to what i want. is NC really it? i just want soo badly to make the right decisions. College, and moving are so scary. i hope this is all normal.
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[November 20th, 2006 @ 7:37pm ] |
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I made a promise never to settle
Why didn't I keep it?
Cause I hated the heartbreak
Crying and [c h e a t i n g], the fooling around.
Well, senior year this year is not going exaclty like I planned it to.
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| It ain't me babe; no, no, no, it ain't me you're looking for. |
[September 5th, 2006 @ 11:37pm ] |
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Our lady peace // "4AM" |
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I can honestly, from the bottom of my heart say that the past 8 months, 2 weeks, 5 hours & 1 minute of my life have been an absolulte & total lie. That person I THOUGHT i loved never even existed. & Actually I am glad I found that out because you can't ever miss someone that never existed at all. I HATE who he really is with all of my heart. & I have nothing else to ever say to him. From this moment on, to me, he never existed.
Okay, i am probably not going to update this thing much anymore, unless something major happens & I want to share it with the livejournal world. I just think that there is really no reason why i should share every detail of my life with people that i barly know anymore. Except that first paragraph up there. I just needed to get that out. Who knows, maybe i will change my mind & update this damn thing all the time, lol. I have no idea.. i just don't feel like doing it anymore right now.
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| I love you & I promise to forever. |
[August 29th, 2006 @ 2:31pm ] |
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The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus // "Your Guardian Angel" |
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'Cause your
My true love
my whole heart
Please don't throw that away
I will never let you fall
I'll stand up for you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to Heaven
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| I know I would apoligize if I could see your eyes... |
[June 27th, 2006 @ 6:26pm ] |
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Jouney // "Open Arms" |
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& i know i wasn't right, but it felt so good.
I am trying not to think about it all, but I miss my best friend, not my ex-boyfriend... but the worst thing is that's the same person. I miss talking to him about everything. I miss him always being there to make me happy when I was sad. When I cried, he made it better. Now who is going to do that? I miss that he always put me first, no matter what. & yeah, I have other friends like Haley & Justin to be there for me, but Aaron & I were just so close & it's just weird now, i guess. I haven't talked to him in days, and I can't help but wonder, "Is he happy? How is he doing? Did he have a good day today?" & I hate it that the last thing I said to him was "Fuck you!" because it shouldn't have been. It's not that I want us to be together, I just miss my friend.. that's all.
--kara
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| Well, I guess I'll see you; I'll see you around. NO MORE begging you to stay.=) |
[June 26th, 2006 @ 3:03am ] |
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Well, I have had a great weekend! =)
It was very fun doing what I want to do for a change. lol.
I am loving this.
Friday; I went to the Rafters for the concert with Bitty, Tasha & Amber. Then Me & Tasha went back to bitty's & then to Gray's for awhile.
Saturday; We slept until 4:30 & then we got up & just keft & went to Wise. We rode around, went to McD's and then we headed back to Bitty's but we made a quick stop at Caleb's so that Tasha could get her car Antena(sp). After that we continued on our way & I got car sick, & Tasha had to pull over to let me puke, lol. But then I was okay. Tasha & I were going to leave & got onhome, but then we noticed she had a flat, so we both called out rents & told them & stayed another night. Johnny fixed it & then we went out again, to get Amber & then we came home about 6. =)
Today: We set the alarm clock so that we would get up early... 12:00, ha! anyway, we (Tasha, Amber & I) left. They dropped me off & I sat in the living room & talked to mom & watched a movie with her, then I got on here & talked Aaron into bring my license to me, which wasn't easy. I left at 3:30 and went with my-kind-of-stepmom (it's complicated) to a cookout. Me & Haven played with the little cousins & then I came home. When I got home my license was here & I was so happy! lol, then Haley came by & tried to get me to stay, but mom said no, so I am just going to stay tomorrow. I talked to Meisha, & Bub then Caleb & now I am about ready to go to bed.
Hmm, on another note... I hate it when you can't even be friends with someone after you break up. It is just dumb. If it wasn't a bad break up, then why not just be friends? I don't get it. I can't stand the way he is sometimes. He's just so stubborn & I hate that!
--kara
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| I'd rather run the other way than stay and see the smoke and who's still standing when it clears... |
[June 19th, 2006 @ 12:46pm ] |
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The Fray // "Over My Head" |
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And suddenly I become a part of your past
I'm becoming the part that don't last
I'm losing you and its effortless
Without a sound we lose sight of the ground
In the throw around
Never thought that you wanted to bring it down
I won't let it go down till we torch it ourselves
WEDNESDAY; Aaron was off work, so we spent the day together. We had a lovely time, lol. He came & woke me up at about 11 & we stayed here until almost 12. & then I got ready & he took me & showed me where he works now. & then we went & talked to his dad, Shannon & Ben at their work. They are all so funny! A little later, Aaron took me to get some Ice cream & we got Ben & Shannon some too. After that we went to Cole's house & talked to him, Amanda & their company for a little while. Sometime later we made a trip to Pet Kingdom & I got Molly! lol, I love her to death! We went home & showed her to mom & then Aaron went to look at some kind of motorcycle & I went to Bonnaterra (Sp) with mom & Tony. Gah- it was so good. AFter we ate I went to Wal-Mart & bought Molly a cute little pink collar & a pink leash to match! It looks adorable! Then I just came home, played with my puppy, talked to aaron & then went to bed.
THURSDAY ; I went to Haley's at about. We didn't do too much, just sat around, talked to Justin & then Melissa came & visited at about 1:20am. But not too long after that she had to leave because she had to get home. Hmm, I think not too long after that we just went to sleep.
FRIDAY; I got up at 9:30 because Kelly was talking to me about how she was sick & stuff so I made her call into work. Later, Haley got up & we took Kelly to the doctor. They gave her some medicine & then we went & got Justin at Gray's. haha, Mufassa liked Molly a little too much. He just kept following her around wherever she went & she was scared, ha! we too Chuck to Wal-Mart McD's and Gray to Wise McD's & then Justin, Haley & Kelly took me home. At this time it was about 5:30. At about 6 Aaron called & I talked to him for a few & then he came & got me & we went to the BFF. It was fun, i reckon. I took Molly with me. She got so excited around all the people & every little kid there, haha almost, wanted to pet her. We walked around with Adam & Mooses most of the time. I talked to Meisha & Brandon for a few minutes & then at about 11:00 we left & went home because I was just tired of being there, lol. We stayed here for a little while & then Aaron went home & I think I got onhere & then went to bed.
SATURDAY; Aaron worked all day, haha. So I just layed around here. Then when he got off he came here & we layed around some more & then we went to Wal-Mart & were going to get some Twislers & Yahoos but the lines were way too long & we just didn't feel like waiting in them, so we left. We got into a little fight about people writing stuff on their LJs and then we went to the Cheveron & Aaron bought me a Chocolate Milk & we came back to my house. We layed around & had "Cuddle time" LOL & watched some TV & then aaron left at almost 12.
He went home, I talked to him on the phone & then I went to sleep.
SUNDAY; HMM, I talked to Meisha & we decided that we had wastd a whole day because all we did was sit around & be lazy. lol, then later that evening Aaron came over & brought me a Hot Fudge Cake with Cherries on it, just liek I like them. I was happy, haha! We gave Molly & Scribbles a bath (which there are pictures of.) & then we watched Family Guy & we laughed so hard! We just had sucha good time with each other. We played a little Super Nintendo & then Aaron had to go home. I watched some movie on channel 11, then talked to my love for a few minutes & then talked to Haley called & I talked to her, then I went to bed.
TODAY; Aaron called me sometime today, but I am not sure what time. lol. They phone woke me up & I thought he was on his lunch break, but actuallt I think he called before he even went to work. Anyway, mom came & woke me up & told me that they were talking my step dad to the Emergency room because he was having really bad chest pains & stuff. & Now he is in the ICU. I am worried about him. But that is basically all I have done today seeing as it is only 1:30pm, lol.
Hmm, tomorrow I have to go to court at 5:00 to get my perment copy of my License & then I reckon I am going to start working at Sykes not too long from now. I am a little excited, haha!
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| It's not so bad, you're only the best I've ever had. |
[June 10th, 2006 @ 11:52pm ] |
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Gary Allen // "Best I've Ever Had" |
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THURSDAY; Aaron came over at 10 & woke me up. We layed there & talked for awhile & then he went & got ready & him & adam cam back to get me at about 12. We drove to Bristol & went to 'Ride Revolution" & then to the Air Port to pick up Aaron's mom & Granny. Aaron & Adam had went to the bathroom & me & Granny were standing there waiting & she said, "I thought you finally got away from that boy." and I just smiled & shook my head and she said, "You just can't leave him for good, can you?" & I said, "No, I can't." & then she hugged me & said, "Well Kara, I've missed you." It made me happy because I love his granny, lol. After that we all went to Red Lobster & ate, then went to the Mall. I picked Aaron out a shirt & then we came home. At abotu 10:00 Jade come & got me & wanted me to stay the night with her, so I did. I went to bed at about 2 or so.
FRiDAY; We got up at around 10:30 & sat around & watched some TV until about 12. After that we went to her boyfriend's house until 3 then she took me home & she went to work. Later on Bub [Balthis] & Grub came & got me to take up to Gray's house so Haley could see Justin. Haha, they got a new dog & haley gave it a bath. It is so cute! It's name is Mufassa (sp), lol. & then Gray let us name his cat Simba. We stayed there until 12 & then justin brought me & haley back here. Aaron called, so I talked to him for awhie & then we went to bed at about 3.
TODAY; I got up at about 1 & left haley in the bed until almost two. She finally got up when Justin called. Then at about three her Nanna came & got her. I took a nap & then a shower & got ready. Aaron got here at about 8:30 & we went to Stuart's then to McD's to talk to Jerrel & Balthis. Then, we went to Applebee's but we got in a fight, so we didn't eat, we just went to Wal-Mart & again we talked to Balthis & Jerrel. haha, after that we were getting along better, so we went & eat. Then, we made another trip to Wal-Mart to get some Pop for Aaron's camping trip. After all that we came back here for about 30 minutes & then he left. I sat here & I was bored so I talked to Adam & then I called Meisha... & I guess that is it.=)
♥, kara
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[June 5th, 2006 @ 2:32pm ] |
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Taking Back Sunday // "Make Damn Sure" |
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Well I updated like yesterday but it was just a song, so I am bored & I feel like updating again today so I am...
Friday, I got up, went for my Sykes Interview. It went so good, (I think). I forgot my ID though so I have to go back on monday & then they will tell me if I get the job or not. I really hope I do. Then I came home, took a nap & then Aaron called & told me he was comming over. He got here at about 6:45. We talked for a long time & I told him about my job interview & he does not want me to get it. He says that we'll never be able to see each other anymore, but I think we will, it just won't be as much. He left arounf 8:30 & I went to Haley's. It was raining, so we didn't leave to go camping until Saturday. We got up at like 12 & packed everything, but then some people were delivering the furnature that Kelly bought, so we had to wait for them to get there. After everything we left at 5. We set up everything & then we ate & went fishing. Haley & Justin caught some catfish & I tried but I didn't catch anything, lol. I was so mad. We I guess did the things that campers do, & then went to bed around 2. Sunday we got up at 8:45 & Kelly cooked breakfast & we ate & all that, then we fished some more & I fianlly caught one. It was little though, so i put it back in the water. We ended up leaving at about 6. Mom came to haley's and got me at 7. It was so good to just take a shower, lol, because I was nasty. I talked to Aaron for a while when I got back... gah, i love him, & then I went to sleep.
Today, I got up at about 11 & got ready to go out with my nanny. We went to Dairy Queen & then to the DMV & they told me I couldn't have a new copy of my leaners because I have a pending license that is still in Richmond. Because my other learners got stolen with my purse, i now have no photo id, which means I can't get the job yet. I called the lady & talked to her about it, & she said that I could just come in as soon as I get my id though. I was so sad, but ahh. I think I am going to go get my nails done in a few minutes then Aaron is comming over.
You are everything i want, 'cause you're everything i'm not.
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[May 21st, 2006 @ 12:40pm ] |
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Avenge Sevenfold // "Warmness on the Soul" |
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( I LOVE YOU! )& I miss you!
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| You've been far away for far too long... |
[May 19th, 2006 @ 12:20am ] |
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Well, probably only Kacey will know what this is about, but that's enough i reckon.
& I'm scared, but I am going to give it all i've got this time around.
This time, This place
Misused, Mistakes
Too long, Too late
Who was I to make you wait
Just one chance
Just one breath
Just in case there's just one left
'Cause you know, you know, you know
That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I miss you
far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you'll be with me
and you'll never go
Stop breathing if
I don't see you anymore
On my knees, I'll ask
Last chance for one last dance
'Cause with you, I'd withstand
All of hell to hold your hand
I'd give it all
I'd give for us
Give anything but I won't give up
'Cause you know, you know, you know
That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I miss you
far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you'll be with me
and you'll never go
Stop breathing if
I don't see you anymore
So far away
(So far away)
Been far away for far too long
So far away
(So far away)
Been far away for far too long
But you know, you know, you know
I wanted
I wanted you to stay
'Cause I needed
I need to hear you say
That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I forgive you
For being away for far too long
So keep breathing
'Cause I'm not leaving you anymore
Believe it
Hold on to me then let me go
Keep breathing
'Cause I'm not leaving you anymore
Believe it
Hold on to me never let me go
(Keep breathing)
Hold on to me never let me go
(Keep breathing)
Hold on to me never let me go
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[May 9th, 2006 @ 5:40pm ] |
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Hmm, Summer is just around the corner. I think only 9 more days of school left & I am so excited. I am going to be a senior next year! hell yeah, lol. Well, that is really all I have to say for now. But- here's another song... ♥j
I’ve got another confession to make
I’m your fool
Everyone’s got their chains to break
Holdin’ you
Were you born to resist or be abused?
Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?
Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?
Are you gone and onto someone new?
I needed somewhere to hang my head
Without your noose
You gave me something that I didn’t have
But had no use
I was too weak to give in
Too strong to lose
My heart is under arrest again
But I break loose
My head is giving me life or death
But I can’t choose
I swear I’ll never give in
I refuse
Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?
Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?
Has someone taken your faith?
Its real, the pain you feel
Your trust, you must
Confess
Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?
Oh...
Oh
Oh
Oh
Oh
Has someone taken your faith?
Its real, the pain you feel
The life, the love
You'd die to heal
The hope that start
The broken hearts
Your trust, you must
Confess
Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?
Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?
I’ve got another confession my friend
I’m no fool
I’m getting tired of starting again
Somewhere new
Were you born to resist or be abused?
I swear I’ll never give in
I refuse
Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?
Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?
Has someone taken your faith?
Its real, the pain you feel
Your trust, you must
Confess
Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?
Oh...
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[July 5th, 2005 @ 9:34pm ] |
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I have been meaning to do this for awhile, but I have just never got around to it. I am deleting EVERYONE off my friends list. If you would like to be added back- comment and answer these five ( questions )
for me. Thanks=)
--kara
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[December 2nd, 2004 @ 10:58pm ] |
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Sorry but I have decided to make this FRIENDS ONLY-- Just add me first & comment to be added/kept. I just want to know who is reading this thing.
-kara eliZabeth*
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